1. |
prettier now
03:14
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I open up with
I'm scared of everything and I feel like I'm going nowhere
Then you tell me that I'm young and things will sort themselves out
But I'm scared that nothing will change
because I know I've heard it all before and I've been through all the motions
So I walk out of the room and pace for a bit
I think of everything that led me here
Going back to Halloween a few years ago
I was a totally different person, oh but not really
Just dormantly wasting away my best years
Not doing what I wanted at all
Had to go to the bottom somewhere in Hoboken
After a night of convincing myself I was the devil
Chained up in a malfunctioning brain
You know I pushed myself down in the mud
To figure out that I already am
What I already was
I already am what I already was
You're just scared of accepting the truth
And you don't know where to begin, so you're puking it all
You'll read up on anything about yourself
Instead of looking in the mirror and seeing the wall
You'd rather diagnosis yourself away from living
Until you hit your breaking point you know that you gotta fake it all
Until you get there yourself, you need to trick yourself by closing yours eyes just like
How Ill tell myself that I'm prettier now
How Ill tell myself that I'm prettier now
One night I stayed up with Mabel talking about just about anything at all
But sometimes I get carried away at 5am I forget how to control myself
When I told her about the lack of free will
I heard it from Ziszek, quite the silly man
But the sniffly sniffly man just knows its all gonna go
In a circle, and nothing changes
So I'll tell myself that I'm prettier now
So I'll tell myself that I'm prettier now
So I'll tell myself that I'm prettier now
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2. |
celia
02:10
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Celia, I'm sorry that I couldn't make it to the show but I hope you'd like to know that I
Wrote this song in the time it would have taken me to get there and come back
Davey-O, I know that I've been pushy for a month or so
But you gotta know that I just want the best for us
you know that I wanna fly, its froggy time
Mabel I'm sorry that I didn't show up
Even though I said yesterday that id be there
Some days I just don't feel like existing, I don't really feel like speeding through time
Sometimes I just want to sit and slow the clock cuz I really don't wanna die
Im just vibing
Secretly I'm tired as hell all of the time
But I wanna do everything in the world
You know that my ambitions are high
Natalie, I'm sorry that those weirdos can be obscene
The internets a cesspools of creepy peeps I'm sorry that we've gotta go through that
Maybe I'm stalling from answering the question
When will I be productive to society
Sometimes I just don't wanna justify, every little movement to myself
Sometimes I need some time to wander around in the dark
Sometimes I fail all of my silly little tasks, silly little world, silly little person I am
Its all gonna blow up under the sun
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3. |
yury's lipstick
02:04
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On a Friday night I stole my friend's dark lipstick
They really lent it to me
I walked away and I saw that
I forgot to put it back
But then I remembered
They told me that they had stolen
This very sexy lipstick Number 14
So I didn't even feel that bad and carried on with my day
But then I remembered
Clairey, you've got to remember
To be good to all of your friends
Yury won't forget that they lent it to you
Clairey, there's repercussions
To stealing even if they stole it
Yury won't be your friend
They'll hate you forever
Friday night
I stayed in bed all twisted
A lonely Christmas Eve
The sickness had gotten better
But I was stuck at home
Watching Jim O'Rourke
Ghoul Lagoon out of commission
The world was kinda twisted
So I just wrote this song tonight
And carried on with my day
But then I remembered
Clairey you've got to remember
To be good to all of your friends
Yury won't forget that they lent it to you
Clairey there's repercussions
To stealing even if they stole it
Yury won't be your friend
They'll hate you forever
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4. |
jets to brunswick
03:53
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The more I see, the more I feel
The more I think that I'm gonna sink
The more you tell me everything's alright
The more I know I'm running out of time
Cause I begin to see
Then I begin to feel
That time is coming to
Take me, betray me
Carry on
On and on and on
I like the tears running down my face
I force them out, nothing but disgrace
I've overstayed my welcome here
I should be gone to new frontiers
But I begin to see
Then I begin to feel
That time will come and take me
Forsake me carry on
On and on and on
Cause I begin to see
But I begin to hear
That time will come and
Create me, erase me to carry on
On and on and on
In my mind I see four eyes, catching faces across the sky
Then I begin to hear
Then I begin to see
That time is waiting to chase me, erase me and carry on
On and on and on
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5. |
froggy
02:45
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Feeling kind of like a little frog
On the market for a shiny log
In the forest in your own backyard
Plotting jumping muddying around
Wet as dew drops accumulate at night
The worms dig at my feet
Mossy bottom brambles cover all around
the world looks down on me but
I know that times await
Late at night
The stills the glory daze
Come huddle underneath my log
And share a cup of tea with me
Feeling kind of
Like a shattered soul
But I've got my friends over here to say
Because ya know
That I care for you
I'll stick with you through the thick and thin
But that was just another dream I had
My friends are gone but I have the thought that
I know that times await
Late at night alone by the fireplace
I'll be just like a little frog
Alone sitting drying out
I know that times await
Late at night alone by the fireplace
I'll be just like a little froggy
Alone sitting drying out
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6. |
only four hours away
04:54
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She'll only be 4 years away from me
I'll take my time, cause she's all I need
So as soon as you get on that bus back home
Give me that love I missed for so long
She'll only be four hours away from me
I'll take my time, cuz she's all I need
So as soon as you get on that flight back home
Give me that love I missed for so long
I devote my love to you
I devote my life to you
I devote my love to you
I devote everything to you
I feel alright when I'm home with you and we watch the sun go down
And we cuddle up together and we stare at each other for hours
And we watch the snow fall and we watch the god rays through the curtains
And we eat lots of pizza and we watch the television
And we watch the clouds float and we breathe into each other
All the love we've got for one another
It's alright
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7. |
beckon the windy pillows
02:12
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commencing
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8. |
baby yr mine
03:30
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I'm looking for a new direction
I'm looking for lots of heat
I'm looking for a clearer picture
I'm flying high brushing up with the sun
I'm cruising towards desecration
I'm selling out my fragile little soul
Just so you, you and I, can feel alright
But don't worry baby
We'll get there eventually
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I'm reading up on paths to stardom
I'm looking for an easy way out
I'll sign up with any label
I'll be the next commodity
I'm moving towards true extinction
I'm selling out my fragile little soul
Just so you, you and I, can feel alright
But don't worry baby
We'll get there eventually
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
I don't know how we managed but baby yr mine
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9. |
darshan's fumes
03:32
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I've been stuck in my head for a few years trying to make sense of my lack of tears
Theres a bit of a hurdle when you get yourself nearer the truth
I don't think anything that's happened around here hasn't confirmed my fears
You may think that you know me, but you don't love me, you just love the view
I think that talking to anyone is just as bad as lying to yourself
I hope you've got the memo, cause nothing is real, nothing is real at all
You shouldn't talk about the way you feel inside your stupid head
You shouldn't talk the way you do again and again and again
Oh Darshy don't you know that you will never survive
Oh Darshy don't you know that you will never survive
Oh Clairey don't you know that you will never survive
Oh Clairey don't you know that you will never survive
Oh Davey don't you know that you will never survive
Oh Davey don't you know that you will never survive
Oh Darshy don't you know you shouldn't smoke away
Your precious little lungs and precious little life
I care for you so you know it's true so
Oh don't you know that you can't tell me I'm telling a lie to you friend
My pink sweatered friend
I care for you so you know it's true so
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10. |
breakup
02:25
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11. |
you get the axe, bud
04:13
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You didn't call the hospital
You make excuses, you make excuses
You never reach out to me
you make excuses, you make excuses
I noticed the way you pulled away ever so subtly
But on the contrary, so did I, so who's to blame
I know that I'm no angel in disguise
But you won't look me in the eyes
Maybe I've got newer friends that
Don't make me feel like
I'm living in the past
Maybe I've got newer friends that
Don't make me carry
The weight of my old past
You didn't care about the fall
Or the winter, or the summer
I know you never cared at all
I tell myself just to feel better
I practice the game
Of feigning care, of putting in effort
You mirror the same
To drive away, to fool this jester
I'm on a coaster running out
The track's unwieldy, splitting out
Maybe I've got newer friends that
Don't make me feel like
I'm living in the past
Maybe I've got newer friends that
Don't make me carry
The weight of my old past
Maybe I've got newer friends that
Don't make me feel like
I'm living in the past
Maybe I've got newer friends that
Don't make me carry
The weight of my old past
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12. |
former future stranger
05:34
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How could I believe you
When you said that you care about me
I met you under a year ago
So who's to say
You won't leave a year later
My insecurity has got no bounds
And I know its all self sabotage
You know its all the pain inside
You know its all in favor of
The worst possible outcome
Somehow I know I'll mess it up
How could you deceive me
When you said that you'd stay forever
You gave me will when I was still all by myself
And stuck in a future with nothing to do
With nothing to say
So I must thank you, for all that you've done, and taken a
You know its all the pain inside
You know its all in favor of
The worst possible outcome
Now I know that I've messed it up
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And again and again and again and again
And I say that I'll change but I'll never change I never change
And I said that I'd change but I never did change
And I said that I'd change but I never did change
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